I had the most beautiful dream last night, I was holding you on my chest, listening to your breath, feeling your tiny hands. It was just you and me, I was sitting in the chair where I should be sitting every night with you, its so painful to wake up and realise your still not here but I love those little times when my mind lets me believe that none of this is true and we still have you here. I miss you so much Maddox, its not getting any easier despite what everyone says. I still long for you, ache for you and somewhere in my mind I think really I still believe this will be ok soon and you'll come home. If only. I love you my beautiful boy and my heart breaks for you. Please come home xxxxx
This candle was first lit on the 19th of October 2010 and will burn for 86 years 5 months and 1 day.