Hello my beautiful boy, daddy and I were talking about you this morning, talking about the day our whole world crumbled around us and we had to say goodbye to you, talking about the time we had with you when you were born and no body else but us knew you were here, we were so amazed by you and daddy told me how the moment the midwife gave you to him he felt like his breath was taken away because you were just so, so beautiful. We talked to monks about how you both used to suck his nose when you were hungary because you thought it was mummy and how alike you both are. People keep telling us that your sister will be alright, that she will get through these weeks and we will see that we can feel happiness again but I'm so scared, I know we could lose her and I just cannot bear to lose any more of my beautiful babies, I just wish you were here so I could have you to cuddle, everything just feels so wrong and I'm so lost, I just hope you know how very much we adore and love you and no matter what you are always at the front of my heart and my tears are always for you. I can still smell you on your coat and I can almost hear your cry, I wish beyond belief that I could hear your cry even if just for a second. I love you so much my darling and I miss you every second of every day. Mummy xxxxx
This candle was first lit on the 9th of November 2011 and will burn for 87 years 5 months and 21 days.